{"id":3342,"date":"2020-02-03T00:00:38","date_gmt":"2020-02-03T05:00:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/?p=3342"},"modified":"2020-02-03T09:07:33","modified_gmt":"2020-02-03T14:07:33","slug":"feb-3-nevermind-i-want-to-cry-out-it-doesnt-matter-about-fragments-finding-them-or-not","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/2020\/02\/03\/feb-3-nevermind-i-want-to-cry-out-it-doesnt-matter-about-fragments-finding-them-or-not\/","title":{"rendered":"Feb 3  &#8220;&#8216;Nevermind,&#8217;  I want to cry out.  &#8216;It doesn&#8217;t matter about fragments.  Finding them or not'&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Monday February 3<br \/>\n\u201c . . .\u00a0a sudden,\u00a0sweet, almost painful love for my students.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>On Monday mornings, I often begin by looking for a post in one or another books of poetry. \u00a0 Some of the poets I have not met before. \u00a0Some read to my ears like the poet missed something. \u00a0I re-read and, sadly, come to the same conclusion. \u00a0But not very often. \u00a0Some stranger opens my ears to the day and to Monday\u2019s work week. \u00a0A few minutes ago, that happened again.<\/p>\n<p>Who, I wonder, is Al Zolynas? \u00a0His poem,\u00a0\u201cLove in the Classroom\u201d knocks me flat. \u00a0And invites me into a classroom in the middle of an assignment, into fear of a teacher\u2019s life, dulling the senses and blunting one&#8217;s bravery. \u00a0But then, I stop, and the whole poem opens my ears to the courage of exploring ordinary fears, that attend a teacher\u2019s life. \u00a0Courage and fear will be at work all over this Monday campus at Six Mile and Livernois, on Jefferson at the Law School, on M L King Blvd at the Dental School: this week, and next, and next again.<\/p>\n<p>A university is not only faculty. \u00a0All around the place people begin to suck it up and focus on the tasks that will shape the day, committed to ordinary courage and ordinary fears. \u00a0But this Monday Al Zolynas pays tribute to teachers as they teach, and to their students. \u00a0Beauty all around while we wait through our winter season. \u00a0Six or seven more weeks and spring will open the daffodils and remind us of beauty and wonder and courage.<\/p>\n<p>Best to read the poet out loud, with pauses.<\/p>\n<p>Have a blest February.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>john sj<\/p>\n<p>p.s.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sr. Bette Moslander, C.S.J, a giant of a woman, died in February 2015 in her Kansas home.\u00a0 I think she was in her 90s.\u00a0 I know, from my own experience and that of many others, that her wisdom ran deep; its bite and edge softened by her kindness and her amazing wit.\u00a0 A loss for many Sisters of St. Joseph and an uncounted number of other women and men.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Today\u2019s Post \u00a0\u201cLove in the Classroom\u201d<br \/>\n<\/strong><a href=\"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Art.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone wp-image-1274 size-medium\" src=\"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Art-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Art-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Art-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Art.jpg 548w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n\u2014 for my students<\/p>\n<p>Afternoon. Across the garden, in Green Hall,<br \/>\nsomeone begins playing the old piano\u2014<br \/>\na spontaneous piece, amateurish and alive,<br \/>\nfull of a simple, joyful melody.<br \/>\nThe music floats among us in the classroom.<\/p>\n<p>I stand in front of my students<br \/>\ntelling them about sentence fragments.<br \/>\nI ask them to find the ten fragments<br \/>\nin the twenty-one-sentence paragraph on page forty-five.<\/p>\n<p>They\u2019ve come from all parts<br \/>\nof the world\u2014Iran, Micronesia, Africa,<br \/>\nJapan, China, even Los Angeles\u2014and they\u2019re still<br \/>\neager to please me. It\u2019s less than half<br \/>\nway through the quarter.<\/p>\n<p>They bend over their books and begin.<br \/>\nHamid\u2019s lips move as he follows<br \/>\nthe tortuous labyrinth of English syntax.<br \/>\nYoshie sits erect, perfect in her pale make-up,<br \/>\nlegs crossed, quick pulse minutely jerking her right foot. Tony,<br \/>\nfrom an island in the South Pacific, sprawls<br \/>\nlimp and relaxed in his desk.<\/p>\n<p>The melody floats around and through us<br \/>\nin the room, broken here and there, fragmented,<br \/>\nre-started. It feels Mideastern, but<br \/>\nit could be jazz, or the blues\u2014it could be<br \/>\nanything from anywhere.<br \/>\nI sit down on my desk to wait,<br \/>\nand it hits me from nowhere\u2014a sudden,<br \/>\nsweet, almost painful love for my students.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNevermind,\u201d I want to cry out.<br \/>\n\u201cIt doesn\u2019t matter about fragments.<br \/>\nFinding them or not. Everything\u2019s<br \/>\na fragment and everything\u2019s not a fragment.<br \/>\nListen to the music, how fragmented,<br \/>\nhow whole, how we can\u2019t separate the music<br \/>\nfrom the sun falling on its knees on all the greenness,<br \/>\nfrom this moment, how this moment<br \/>\ncontains all the fragments of yesterday<br \/>\nand everything we\u2019ll ever know of tomorrow!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Instead, I keep a coward\u2019s silence.<br \/>\nThe music stops abruptly;<br \/>\nthey finish their work,<br \/>\nand we go through the right answers,<br \/>\nwhich is to say<br \/>\nwe separate the fragments from the whole.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Al-Zolynas.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone wp-image-1275 \" src=\"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Al-Zolynas-214x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"190\" height=\"266\" srcset=\"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Al-Zolynas-214x300.jpg 214w, https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/170\/2015\/03\/Al-Zolynas.jpg 275w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 190px) 100vw, 190px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\u201cLove in the Classroom\u201d by Al Zolynas. Text as published in\u00a0<em>Under Ideal Conditions: Poems\u00a0\u00a0<\/em>(Laterthanever Press, 1994; no bookseller link available).<em>\u00a0<\/em>\u00a9 Al Zolynas.<br \/>\nReprinted by permission of the poet. \u00a0\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/www.russian-globe.com\/N46\/Zolynas.About.htm\">http:\/\/www.russian-globe.com\/N46\/Zolynas.About.htm<\/a><br \/>\n<em>Art credit:<\/em>\u00a0\u201cOpen Window,\u201d acrylic on canvas, abstract\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/media-cache-ec0.pinimg.com\/736x\/72\/c3\/4f\/72c34f2365ce6f1c5c9ba06bf425cc6a.jpg\"><strong>painting<\/strong><\/a>\u00a0by\u00a0<strong><a href=\"http:\/\/filomenabooth.com\/\">Filomena De Andrade Booth.<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Monday February 3 \u201c . . .\u00a0a sudden,\u00a0sweet, almost painful love for my students.\u201d On Monday mornings, I often begin by looking for a post in one or another books of poetry. \u00a0 Some of the poets I have not &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/2020\/02\/03\/feb-3-nevermind-i-want-to-cry-out-it-doesnt-matter-about-fragments-finding-them-or-not\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":139,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[11641],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3342"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/139"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3342"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3342\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3345,"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3342\/revisions\/3345"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3342"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3342"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.udmercy.edu\/poetry\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3342"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}